Coming back to Germany from my Internship in Paris was, once again, like starting a whole new life in my old hometown. And actually, sometimes it can be even more difficult to reset your life in your familiar surrounding than in a new one. Because it isn't really a reset - it's more like a puzzle: there's still the same picture on it, but the pieces have changed their shape.
You can't put them together like you've done it the last time. It's confusing! While I was trying to put all those pieces back together, I was constantly searching for those in the old shape. It took me some time to realize that this situation was both common and uncommon. So let's face it, I was entering into a life full of familiarity and uncertainties. And I just did't wanted it to be like that.
"Where to go next?", this question popped up in my head like every minute and for several reasons I hadn't the opportunity to go wherever I wanted to. In conclusion: I just wanted to leave my hometown because it didn't felt like the place where I would like to be, but at the same time leaving wouldn't have felt completely right either.
That was when I started to rethink my life. How can I handle this paradoxical situation? I didn't want to search for a long-term employment (let's not mention that I still don't know what kind of employment this could be) and so I decided to do some part-time jobs.
But part-time jobs also means to earn less money and beyond that, there was still this inner unrest. The desire to move on. After all this exact desire was the key. It helped myself to not concentrate on the fact that I don't got a lot of money, and instead of that on this one thing we all have in common: time.
- Sarah
"Where to go next?", this question popped up in my head like every minute and for several reasons I hadn't the opportunity to go wherever I wanted to. In conclusion: I just wanted to leave my hometown because it didn't felt like the place where I would like to be, but at the same time leaving wouldn't have felt completely right either.
That was when I started to rethink my life. How can I handle this paradoxical situation? I didn't want to search for a long-term employment (let's not mention that I still don't know what kind of employment this could be) and so I decided to do some part-time jobs.
But part-time jobs also means to earn less money and beyond that, there was still this inner unrest. The desire to move on. After all this exact desire was the key. It helped myself to not concentrate on the fact that I don't got a lot of money, and instead of that on this one thing we all have in common: time.
- Sarah
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